Hello Everyone! I do hope your new year is going well. I am looking forward to hearing from you in 2014. I also want to take this opportunity to especially thank those of you that taken the time to write comments on my blog. My goal was to offer you a place to share your concerns and to give support. Today I am sharing an incredible example of just how powerful this can be. Jeannie recently responded to a blog post that I had written some time ago, so you may have seen her entry . She has given me permission to share her comments again and so has Lauren, the social worker I asked to respond. Please share your thoughts on this important issue…
Comment written on the blog from Jeannie:
Not sure if this is the right forum, but my elderly Mom is going through chemo now for OVCA stage 3c after extensive surgery at MD Anderson. I’m doing everything I can.. .she lives in another state and I fly back and forth like she’s down the block… have nurses, sitters, other relatives with her at all times. I can’t move there and have offered for her to come live with me till chemo is over but she refuses. So the problem: She constantly complains about how bored she is… she’s been very active and independent until all this doing all her own yard work, babysitting great grandchildren etc. She’s surrounded by people all the time… lots of multi generational family coming and going which she loves. I bought her a laptop to use in bed because she had spent a lot of time on genealogy and facebook etc online, before. My daughter, who has more disposable income than I, has hired a personal “concierge” for her so that anything she desires appears quickly. WE bring her cross word puzzles, any food she wants that can be reached within an hour, any movie .. book… etc.. .you get the idea. She has everything she could ask for yet she still is complaining about being lonely and bored. She’s almost like a child… it’s so stressful for me that I have developed something like colitis and can’t eat – losing weight almost as fast as she is. Any help would be so appreciated. Thank you. Jeannie
Response from Lauren:
I am Lauren and I’m a clinical social worker at a cancer center in Greensboro, NC. It just so happens that I’m also Patsy’s daughter. Of course, my own personal experience with cancer is what led me to work in the healthcare care setting and I often hear many situations that are similar to yours. First off, I want to share how absolutely wonderful it is that your mother has so much love and support from her large family and friends. That truly is a wonderful blessing.When you ask your mother what she feels she needs, what does she say? What does she indicate as her biggest concerns at this time?I would really recommend you share your concerns with your mom’s oncologist and get connected with a clinical social worker at her center. A clinical social worker can assess for psycho-social/emotional needs and find ways to support the whole family. Many people going through the cancer journey (and even more often in older adults) experience depression or symptoms of depression. Often in older adults, feelings of loneliness or boredom can be a sign of depression. It is important for her healthcare team to rule out depression or address symptoms just like they would any other physical symptom.From what you’ve shared, it sounds like independence is really important to your mother and she may be feeling a loss of independence/control. A good technique may be working with your mom to help her identify ways that she can maintain her independence and possibly explore what energizes her.I would say it’s equally, if not more, important that you and your family receive caregiver support. I’m sure you’ve heard over and over again that “you’ve got to care of yourself so you can care for her”. Although easier said than done, it is really important! Are you connected to any caregiver support groups? Are you able to balance care giving duties with your other family members? Sometimes it’s really hard to know how to “help”…yet the most important thing is to be present.You are doing an awesome job as a daughter/caregiver!I would love to hear from other survivors and caregivers that may have experienced similar situations???Lauren
Response from Jeannie:
Lauren’s reply hit me squarely between the eyes…. I was taking care of everything I could possibly think of except for her psychological spiritual needs… WHAT was I thinking? I would just tell her she could talk to me… and try to listen but, of course, I’m really not the best person for this. She’s trying to be brave for me. I have since called her church and having calls into the various drs and centers for resources that may be helpful. I’m so glad I posted to your blog. May never have figured this out on my own. Thank you and Lauren so very much. Couldn’t see the forest for the trees!
Have you experienced this? What are your thoughts??
Happy Holidays to you all!! Today I bring you a guest post that I know you will like. You may have noticed that, as of my last post, I have created a category to the left to give readers easy access to the concrete strategies that I have used to reclaim my joy. I very much desire for this blog to give us all an open, safe forum to share emotional struggles/ traumatic events and ways that we’ve dealt with them. As a result, I have asked my friend, Mary, to be a guest poster. Mary is an inspiration for me in really making improvements in the way I eat and fighting cancer with healthy foods. I have made progress in this area, but have a long way to go. Mary’s encouragement and willingness to share with me has been such a blessing. So, today I’m sharing this blessing with you as Mary writes about her most recent experience. Enjoy!
“I recently attended a health retreat to become a patient of Dr. Nasha Winters, a Naturopath with Namaste Health Center located in Durango, Colorado. It was totally amazing to be in the company of people living the life that I have been striving to achieve for the last 15 months after experiencing my first recurrence of ovarian cancer only 7 months out from initial first line treatment. They have started doing week-end retreats at various locations across the country, which made it easier for me to attend in Burnsville, NC!
We have all heard that sugar is bad if you have cancer, but really that is just a part of the big picture. Dr. Winters is careful to point out that she is not trying to cure cancer, but to build up your body terrain to such a level to fight off disease in general naturally. She is a twenty-two year survivor of ovarian cancer and has over 4000 hours studying nutrition. The big take aways from the week-end are as follows:
- Limit sugar to 15-25 grams per day total
- Limit fruit, natural sugar
- All carbs turn to sugar; bread, chips, legumes, etc.
- No gluten, wheat or grains
- No potatoes, rice, pasta
- Drink ½ of your body weight in ounces of water daily
- Eat 9 cups of veggies per day
- Use coconut oil, milk & flour
- Eat organic veggies and grass-fed hormone free protein
- Get extra vitamin D3, especially in the winter
- Remove any stresses in your life, to the point of removing yourself from the situation
- Exercise, especially yoga and relaxation therapies
- No more mammograms-do thermography instead
There was plenty more, trust me it was overwhelming! But we sat in hard chairs for hours at a time totally engrossed in the information being presented. Everyone there was in some stage of a cancer diagnosis and prepared to make changes to improve our chances of beating this disease.Before arriving at the retreat we all submitted a health & personal history plus 15 different blood tests. She focuses on treating the entire body through mind, body and spirit.Nasha will then provide a treatment plan specific to your needs, including diet and supplements to improve your overall terrain. She does stress that eventually your food should be all of the supplements you need. She also will work closely with your oncologist to combine traditional as well as alternative medicines and will help prepare your body for any upcoming procedures.
They basically follow a paleo style diet and you can google any recipe and add “paleo” and a recipe will pop up. Also “paleonewbie.com” is another good resource. They prepared all of our meals on site and they were delicious, and we had dessert every night! Although they did stress that dessert is for special occasions. This lifestyle requires cleaning out your pantry and restocking with some new supplies but I have been amazed that I am accumulating the ingredients required for more and more recipes. Thankfully my husband is on board and we have had fun trying new recipes. We laugh that the recipes are similar to our usual fair but just “a little off”. I’m working out the kinks, frankly some are better than others.
Whether or not this is the cure for living with cancer only time will tell. This is one phase of my journey that I am embracing totally and I feel fantastic! I can tell you that I have had chronic pain in my right shoulder& hip for over a year and it is practically gone and I do attribute that to eating this way for only two weeks! Sugar and gluten cause inflammation in your body and I am convinced that everyone, not just cancer patients, should try this lifestyle. Also, go to IntuitiveTerrain.com for more information on Namaste Health Center and other great resources.
As the retreat came to an end, I noticed that no one wanted to leave this bubble full of hope and inspiration and the thought that we could actually have some control over our health. In our world that is huge! But come to an end it did and we all left feeling more empowered and excited to get started with our new lifestyle changes. Namaste! (The spirit within me acknowledges the spirit within you!)
Hello, dear friends! I do hope you are all doing well and looking forward to the upcoming holidays. Several of you have asked how I am doing so I’m using my blog entry today as an update in hopes it will help some of you going through similar issues. So, here goes…
I mentioned in an earlier post that I received a diagnosis of mast cell disease and have been asked about this. For several years, I have had some very strange reactions to certain foods. I would suddenly start feeling nauseated, become extremely flushed, and go into an anaphylaxis episode. It was a bit scary. Mast cell is a rare autoimmune disease that involves the body having too many mast cells. It is not an allergy to food. The only way to determine one’s triggers are to by actually experiencing an episode. Some people are triggered by foods and others by things in the environment. Treatment for me is, of course, avoiding triggers and medication. I carry my trusted epi pen and Benadryl with me. If you want to learn more, go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mastocytosis.
For several years, I have been having difficulty with diarrhea. (As you can see, I have no pride when it comes to talking about bowel issues). So, I have had numerous tests done and seen 2 different Gastrologists. I have lost weight because of this and have been getting weaker and weaker. Believe me; the body needs to retain nutrients. Well, I began seeing an integrative medical doctor at Northeast Medical Center and she ordered a celiac profile. Yep, I have celiac disease. So, I have been adhering very strictly to a gluten-free diet. I like not running to the restroom after eating and have learned now that a gluten-free diet is recommended as a healthy eating plan for people with and without the celiac diagnosis, particularly cancer patients since it reduces inflammation. http://celiac.org/celiac-disease/what-is-celiac-disease.
Many of you know that I have been on an avastin trial since my cancer recurred in 2009. I have been so fortunate that it has worked well for me and kept me cancer free since then. The long-term effects of being on this drug for so long are unknown so it has been a bit of a risk, but well worth it to me. Well, it seems my time hanging out with avastin has ended. A couple of months ago, my kidney protein/creatine ratio labs began to rise and continued to the point I had missed several treatments, per the trial requirements. The hope was that taking a break from avastin would make the numbers go down, but, unfortunately, they almost doubled. So, now I have been referred to a nephrologist to determine what the next steps are. And, yep, I was terminated from the trial due to the increase.
Several of my family and friends have asked me how I am feeling about having to stop avastin. It does seem somewhat strange. Getting the avastin every 3 weeks has become a part of my regular routine. I understand why some women discontinue drugs that are working. I have been tempted to do so at times. However, when I entered the bleep bleep cancer world I made a couple of commitments to myself. One is that I will take risks and “ride any wave” that works for as long as I could, so I tolerated the side effects, which could have been much worse. I have also attended many conferences and learned that some believe that when avastin is used for an extended length of time and stopped, the cancer comes back with a vengeance. This was a risk worth taking for me. I take staying alive very seriously.
But, all is not bleak! Except for the blood pressure hikes and the kidney woes, I feel better that I have for a very long time. Getting the avastin for so long has really caused my body to take a hit. I need some time to build my strength and my medical team agrees. I am focusing my efforts now on eating right and taking care of myself…something I do have control of. My team at Levine Cancer Institute (thanks Dr. Hall, DeLeslie, and Sarah) has been exceptional and caring and kept in close contact with me and included me in the decision-making. In fact, I believe that we have worked as a model transdisciplinary team. My advice: insist on this from your team. Your input is valuable and needs to be heard. Of course, the more you know, the more you can contribute.
I mentioned at the beginning of this post that I hope others experiencing similar situations as mine can benefit. Ok, here’s another commitment I have made. I have worked very, very hard to really live by the belief that “I will not worry until there is something to worry about” and that has made my life a much more joyful one. This may not make a lot of sense to you given I have just shared some concerning news. However, remember, cancer is a skilled robber and stalker so we CANNOT hand over our power to live in peace and contentment. I know I sound like an Anti Cancer Evangelist but for me I have to feel that strongly about it to protect my joy. I have a feeling any of you dealing with struggles can identify. Hey, I’m just a gal trying to hang in there and have fun. I certainly may fall apart in the future. However, that’s the future and isn’t it really today that matters??
Have the happiest of Thanksgiving ever!! I am incredibly thankful for you all today and always!!!!!!
about pink football cleats or what color towers are. I just want funding for research NOW so we can find a cure for the monster.
It has again slithered out like a snake taking hold of an unlikely healthy body, loving spouse, dedicated parent and person I love dearly. Enough said…
I’m excited to be on my way to Miami to speak at the Teal Over Miami event. The event is sponsored by Lydia’s Legacy, an organization founded by Carin Ross Johnson in memory of her dear mother, Lydia, who died of cancer. Lydia, was an active advocate in her hometown of Miami. There are limited services there for survivors of gynecological cancers, so Lydia’s Legacy is having a special event called “Teal Over Miami.” Carin has a core group of dedicated volunteers and needs more. So, if you’re from the Miami area and would like to help provide needed services, let me know. Special thanks to my FORCE (Facing Our Risk of Cancer Empowered) Miami sister, Wendy U. for all her help!
Come out and join us Saturday night. I promise it will be fun and would love to meet you. http://www.tealovermiami.com.
Of course, since this is my first trip to Miami, I must stay for a longer visit and enjoy the city. I have been waiting for this trip for some time because I get to spend several days with my very best friend, Sherry. Sherry and I have known each other pretty much since birth. She is an absolute doll and more fun than you can imagine. I admire her very much. She has been the caregiver, who suffers from a serious illness, for many years now. She certainly deserves this trip and I can hardly wait to see her. Sherry has been there for me through some really tough times and I love her dearly.
So, bags packed, flight leaves tomorrow! So important to make time to have fun and to spend time with those we love. I am truly blessed.
Love to you all…
Love to you all…
That sentence tells it like it is and is so true for me. Admittedly, that’s why I have not posted lately. I just haven’t had the energy. But to be completely honest, I find it difficult to post when I am feeling blah. I promised myself that I’d not only post happy news, but I am surprised at how hard it is to write about uninspiring stuff. Have you ever noticed that most pictures of survivors are those depicting victory? I was looking at a recent commercial recently and it was about an upcoming walk. All the survivors looked so full of energy. One time I heard a doctor talk on Good Morning America. She was asked why some cancers were not more active and better represented. Her reply was so incredible. She clearly stated that many survivors are just too sick to do it. Bet that didn’t inspire anyone.
So, let’s talk about being tired a little. The causes are much more “day-to-day” than others sometimes realize. You start with limited energy. I have worked really hard to only use my energy doing what I want to do with those I want to do it with, so it’s not really an issue of prioritizing my time. Survivors often have to use it doing chemo, tests, and medical appointments. For example, I have 3 next week and that’s a good week. Another issue is that if you are in treatment long-term, the drug just beats your immune system down and that causes other medical problems. That’s been my case. I have seen a lot of specialists due to issues that seem to have no resolution. My latest diagnosis is mast cell disease. So more tests. I have added on 5 more medicines and they are causing me to be even more tired. These are just examples of why the issue of being tired seems to be pretty chronic for many survivors.
The impact of being tired way too much can be really depressing. Naturally, we don’t necessarily look tired or act tired around others. It’s very unlike when you’ve lost your hair or have other signs that you are struggling. Of course, it’s hard to get things accomplished, hard to find time to be with those you love (and I have so many), and hard to be part of a family where others are productive. For me, I limit my travels and I find it very hard feeling as if I am wasting valuable time not living the life I have been blessed with.
I have been thinking so much about this and hear others that are dealing with cancer and other illnesses talk about it, so I decided it warranted a post. What are your thoughts on the issue?
Today I left home early for a scheduled lab draw appointment, CT scan, Doctor’s appointment, treatment. This is the normal for cancer survivors in the Cancer World. I was on my way and uptown in rush hour traffic just sitting at a light in my compact civic hybrid, waiting to turn. SURPRISE!! Suddenly, a large Expedition SUV slammed into my bumper. The driver came up to my window (there was no place to really exit my car since I was on an uptown street), checked to see if I was hurt and started begging me not to call the police. This guy was desperate, telling me it would be a major problem for him. To make a long story short, I reiterated that I was calling the police for sure, assumed he had no license but to give me other information. He then went back to his car and left the scene. I tried to see his plate number but could only get part of it. The police came, were very polite but no help at all finding him. So, I drove myself to the emergency room due to pain in my neck, shoulders, and back. Thankfully, nothing was broken and I’m just very sore and achy but have some great meds. Due to the fact I have post polio and joint issues from my cancer drug, the impact is a real pain (sorry, had to say that).
After my morning experience I asked myself why I was so cool and calm. I realized that all the work I have done to decide what is important is actually working. Again, this takes a lot of work and does not happen quickly. I allow myself to worry about very little. My mantra is that “if it ain’t cancer, it ain’t a worry.” I find it very liberating to live life this way, not waiting for the next shoe to drop. Cancer survivors must find strategies like this because we have such limited energy and can deplete it quickly. I constantly assess how to spend my time. For me, it is a cherished gift and honored beyond belief.
Today it was especially easy to know what matters. This was the 30th wedding anniversary for Steve and me. Steve has been a rock for me in so many ways I could write a book. His sense of humor is something I love beyond words. Since my diagnosis in 2006, he has done so many things for me, both physically and mentally, to keep me going. I often feel a sadness for survivors that do not have the incredible support that I have had from a partner. I have been blessed way beyond what I deserve and consider it unbelievable that I was given such a cherished gift. So, today, it’s obvious to me what matters and I look forward to many more wonderful years with such a special guy. I love you, Steve…
I met Ruth several years ago at our cancer support group. You may recall that I wrote a post last December about Ruth titled A Name to Remember . Ruth was the kind of person that was always looking for ways to help others. She never saw this as a chore, but, rather, as a Blessing. When she learned that I was active in finding Boston Terriers adoptive homes, she was immediately interested and eager to know more. (check out http://www.btrnc.org and http://www.ccbtr.org). I was excited to find someone who was willing to help foster the dogs that were surrendered to the rescue. Fostering dogs is not something that people usually do without thinking about it for a while. Not Ruth. She was ready to do her part to help these precious pups. Her only request was to talk to her best friend, Nicky, since she shared a home with her. So, Ruth did this and Nicky was fine with being a foster parent. At this point, I am thinking, “Are these angels for real??”
Soon after this, one of our local animal shelters contacted the rescue about a dog desperately needing help. They did not think she’d live through the night unless we found a home for her because she needed very intense care. Since this was Ruth and Nicky’s first foster, we were planning to place a dog in their home that had minimal problems. However, things often don’t work as planned in the Rescue World and so off she went to Ruth and Nicky’s (“The Palace”).
Likewise, things don’t often work as planned in the Cancer World. Ruth was again in treatment fighting the beast. To make a long story short, we decided to foster little Aggie together, since we were both in treatment and I had just placed my foster dog. So, we called it our “Timeshare Foster” and worked together caring for Aggie. Fortunately, Aggie recovered from her serious condition, but, unfortunately, we learned she had a long list of medical conditions, including COPD, hernias, and urinary problems. She was in diapers all the time and pranced around in suspenders attached to them. Her prognosis was dim but as we got to know Aggie we realized she was a senior dog with what a vet described as an unbelievable will to live. Ruth and I had an ongoing joke that she’d outlive us both .
One of many things I have learned in rescue work is there are certain dogs that “find” you and when they do, they claim you. This happened to Aggie. Aggie didn’t like men much and we have 2 in our household. Aggie takes steroids everyday, so likes to eat (actually, all Bostons are little piggys) and Nicky is a gourmet cook, so she loved to spend time in the kitchen there. So, she tolerated us until she could return to The Palace. Until one day.
She decided she wanted to stay at The Palace and she started working to make that happen. When she was at my house she barked incessantly. Our vet with 30 plus years of experience at first thought it was a sign of senility and then anxiety and added prozac to her regiment. Nothing helped.
Sadly, Ruth’s cancer progressed and she was in bed more. Aggie chose a place at her side and only left Ruth for a diaper change or short trip outside. Aggie’s heart broke, as did so many others, when Ruth passed.
Nicky once told me that she thought she was caring for Aggie, when, in fact, Aggie was caring for her. We all continue to grieve the lost of our dear Ruth, but especially, Nicky and Aggie. I know Ruth is very happy that, as of this month, Nicky has officially made Aggie the official Queen of The Palace by adopting her and making her a true member of the family forever.
Sometimes, miracles do happen in the Cancer World…
I recently had the privilege of attending the American Society of Clinical Oncology Annual Meeting . The meeting is the annual gathering of more than 25,000 doctors and healthcare professionals that work in the oncology field. This year’s meeting was titled “Building Bridges to Conquer Cancer.” The ASCO website describes this by saying that “attendees of the 2013 Annual Meeting find cutting-edge scientific presentations and comprehensive educational content.”
I attended with 15 fellow advocates across the USA in the Focus on Research Advocate Institute as a nominee of the Ovarian Cancer National Alliance. Prior to the meeting, we attended webinars led by Focus on Research on different scientific topics. I’d love to share more with you about the program so if you are interested in representing advocates, just leave me a comment.
Following the meeting, each scholar wrote a summary on the meetings we attended which included the most current information on progress in research “hot off the press.” I represented ovarian cancer advocates so I am including the link below. Just copy and paste it and you will be directed to the summary report that I completed, along with my teal sisters that attended. If you would like to see the complete report on all the cancers represented, just leave me a comment and I will send it to you. I would appreciate it if you’d forward this post on to any of your cancer contacts so more survivors can have the benefit of the current update on their cancers. There were so many cancers represented, some very rare. I learned so much from the other advocates and think you will, too.
Hope you are having a blast this summer!
I didn’t want this day to pass without wishing all you moms a glorious day! This day takes on a cherished status to those of us that live in the cancer world. No words can adequately express the gratitude I feel about being here today with my precious children. Making more memories is such a gift and a blessing.
I am so touched by the efforts of my beautiful friends, Dina and Carin pictured above with me. Dina and Carin lost their mothers to ovarian cancer. This Mother’s day Dina and Carin chose to spend it promoting awareness and research through our local organization (Lydia’s Legacy) created by Carin. Dina has worked closely with professional photographers in our area and coordinated photo shoots for mothers and their families. I had a ball at our photo session (we even included the grand dog) and got to see my survivor friend, Carolyn. What brave, giving souls Dina and Carin are to spend their day giving to others at a time so difficult for them. If I were making a who’s who list for the most caring people in the world, I can tell you for sure Dina and Carin would be at the top! (Dina and Carin, if you’re reading this…Happy Mother’s Day to you, too!)
I am thinking so much about those I love that have lost their sweet mothers due to this terrible disease. My heart breaks for them. I pray that Dina, Carin, Lindsey, James, Alex, Brett, Karen and all the other young sons and daughters that have lost their moms receive some comfort from knowing they are being held tight by me. However, I realize that no amount of loving will ever completely heal their broken hearts. I love you all…