I’m Tired of…
That sentence tells it like it is and is so true for me. Admittedly, that’s why I have not posted lately. I just haven’t had the energy. But to be completely honest, I find it difficult to post when I am feeling blah. I promised myself that I’d not only post happy news, but I am surprised at how hard it is to write about uninspiring stuff. Have you ever noticed that most pictures of survivors are those depicting victory? I was looking at a recent commercial recently and it was about an upcoming walk. All the survivors looked so full of energy. One time I heard a doctor talk on Good Morning America. She was asked why some cancers were not more active and better represented. Her reply was so incredible. She clearly stated that many survivors are just too sick to do it. Bet that didn’t inspire anyone.
So, let’s talk about being tired a little. The causes are much more “day-to-day” than others sometimes realize. You start with limited energy. I have worked really hard to only use my energy doing what I want to do with those I want to do it with, so it’s not really an issue of prioritizing my time. Survivors often have to use it doing chemo, tests, and medical appointments. For example, I have 3 next week and that’s a good week. Another issue is that if you are in treatment long-term, the drug just beats your immune system down and that causes other medical problems. That’s been my case. I have seen a lot of specialists due to issues that seem to have no resolution. My latest diagnosis is mast cell disease. So more tests. I have added on 5 more medicines and they are causing me to be even more tired. These are just examples of why the issue of being tired seems to be pretty chronic for many survivors.
The impact of being tired way too much can be really depressing. Naturally, we don’t necessarily look tired or act tired around others. It’s very unlike when you’ve lost your hair or have other signs that you are struggling. Of course, it’s hard to get things accomplished, hard to find time to be with those you love (and I have so many), and hard to be part of a family where others are productive. For me, I limit my travels and I find it very hard feeling as if I am wasting valuable time not living the life I have been blessed with.
I have been thinking so much about this and hear others that are dealing with cancer and other illnesses talk about it, so I decided it warranted a post. What are your thoughts on the issue?
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