I did it again…

Yesterday was my birthday. It was filled with good food (including gluten free cupcakes, yum), presents, fun and lots of love and kindness.  I was so happy that both my children were able to be at home all day, which is unusual due to their work schedules.  It was an absolutely perfect day even with the rain pouring all day.  Just like old times with quilts on the floor, looking at baby pictures, movies, and the grand dog with some…well I’ll just say the candles weren’t the only smell in the room.

Frankly, I’ve never understood why some people dread aging.  My “younger” life was not always a stress free, happy one.   When I was younger, I cared way too much about what others thought of how I lived my life.  I have found getting older to be wonderful, a sort of freedom to live life the way you choose.

I loved the American Cancer Society’s campaign about being the Official Sponsor of Birthdays. What a great public relations effort.  It conjures up images of people being cured of cancer or living with cancer while also having full lives.  For me, it is indescribable to state what making it to one more birthday feels like.  I have so many feelings about it.  I question why I made it this long and others that fought so hard did not?  I think of all the children who are unable to be with their moms on this day.   I wonder how many more I will have?  Yes, as hard as I try to put this thought in a box and close the lid,  I wonder will this be my last?

And then….I turn to the present moment…loving every inch of what I have been granted. Reading the facebook wishes over and over while looking around the room at the most beautiful children in the world and bursting with pride for who they have become, seeing the husband who insisted on making this birthday a celebrated one and realizing that I have been honored to celebrate my day during the season of Easter…a time where living takes new meaning.

Happy Easter… Patsy

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